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I've had an eating disorder once before, years ago. Now it's back, not just because I feel fat, but because I miss the sense of control I used to have. I feel my life sliding out of focus and I want to take solace in the fact that I can just have this one thing for myself, the ability to monitor my calories constantly. The therapeutic arithmetic of adding the calories and maintaining balance. The love I have for myself and the happiness I feel is inversely proportional to my weight.
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Forever 21 opened up the Times Square Flagship store.
The four-level, 91,257-square-foot flagship store is opened from 8 a.m. to 2 a.m.
It has 151 fitting rooms, 32 cash registers and 500 employees.
I’ll surely be visiting soon.
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This is my heaven, I need to make a journey here one day and I will never leave, this will be my new home.

I almost died, it’s so beautiful.

No. No. This is NOT real life.

Yeah, I was in there this afternoon.

Anyone up for a trip to New York?:D



Honestly, the first thing I thought after I read this was ‘They could have used this money for a better cause. Like to help feed thee homeless, help abused and hurt animals, help stop human trafficking or at least help get people out of it.’ I don’t know. People are so dumb sometimes and forget about the things that really matter when it comes to money and business. Think. Really think.


OH MY GOD I’M GOING TO NYC ON FRIDAY AND MY WISHLIST CONSISTS OF THIS AND SEEING CHICAGO ON BROADWAY.
Yay

Mmm good workout and now I’m all cleannnn! 1:30-2:30 am = the latest I’ve ever worked out before.

1200 calories

I feel so guilty now :/

It’s 1 am though. Can I work out in my basement? Maybe if my stupid brother’s stupid friends are gone.

Cool

So I walk into the house of the 5 year old girl I’m babysitting for tonight. And she looks me over and goes “You look…cool.” Haha. I’m in a grey teeshirt and black shorts and sandals. I’m not looking cool at all.

In Reference to My Last Post

WAIT. WHAT? I LOST A POUND? WHAT? WHY DID IT TAKE LIKE 12 HOURS FOR THAT TO SET IN? I’M SO HAPPY.

Good morning, scale. Yes, nice to see you again too! What’s that? I’ve lost a pound? Bless your heart.

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Thank you for following!!!! WE WILL GET TO THE LAND OF PERFECTION AND SHOW THOSE WHO SAID WE COULDN'T!!! stickling-deactivated20100824

You’re welcome. Every day makes us stronger. :)

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oh my god how. you have done so well with your weight loss. i'm so inspired. 3-13am

:) You just made me realllly happy. I just do cardio almost every day for an hour and eat about 1100 calories a day with a lot of protein. I eat healthily because freshman year I restricted too much and then when I started eating sophomore year I gained some of the weight back and now I’m going to get rid of it the healthy way, :)

Intake, exercise, general life emotions.

Today I fell in love with jogging outside in thunderstorms. I usually hate running because it hurts my knees, but I experimented with different running postures and found a way to run that didn’t hurt. I want to start morning jogs.

Also:

Intake:

Veggie Lasagne (300)

1 cup mango frozen yogurt, heh (200)

Red Curried Chicken (300)

2 pickles (10)

1 plum (30)

1 HOMEOPATHIC PASSION DROP. lmfao (0)

Exercise: During a thunderstorm, I ran 3 miles, ran up the stairs of a parking garage a couple times and ran across the top of the parking garage roof and then cleaned my room and moved my furniture around for an hour.


Emotions:

I’m jealous of Vanessa for being so skinny. And feeling inadequate again.

Cody
Me:  lets never date a boy named cody
 they are always fruity and eccentric.
Kathleen:  yeah they are alllllll not ok